Psalm 13:1 “O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever? How long will you look the other way?”
Psalm 10:1 “Lord, why do you stand so far away? Why do you hide when I need you the most?”
Psalm 22: 2 “Every day I call to you, my God but you do not answer. Every night you hear my voice, but I find no relief.”
It is my deep conviction that the only approach to our relationship with God is, to be Honest! If you are angry with Him, you might as well express it, it’s in your heart and He already knows. Harboring it inside and not giving it release can lead to a “root of bitterness” springing up and not only will you be defiled but others around. It is like a poison that will ultimately spread and affect your relationship with God and others. On the other hand, if you openly admit to God how you truly feel, He can and will address that and minister to you, where you are, and bring you into an abiding relationship with Him.
Sadly for ages, too many in the Church have become experts at “wearing masks”. We put on our Sunday faces but the heart is still the same. We fool many people much of the time but we can Never fool God any time. This is borne out by the writer of Hebrews in Hebrews 4:12 – “For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.” NASB
If you are disappointed. If the prayer you are praying has not been answered in the way that you desire. If tragedy has come to your dwelling and you are less than pleased with God – Tell Him! He already knows and can only help you when you get totally honest with him! As long as you hide behind a pretend righteousness you will only decline in your spiritual relationship. However, when you become totally honest with God you will find that He is Immediately on the scene with His “Unconditional Love” and “Immeasurable Grace” to minister to you where you are, in the condition you are, and at the level of understanding, you have.
It is as I’ve said many times regarding my earthly father and his love for me. I never questioned that he loved me. It was not until I was fully grown, had come back from Vietnam, and entered the ministry that I heard him say, “Roy, I love you!”
I knew he loved me, and although I longed to hear it from him, it was not the way he was brought up and not the way he manifested his love. Yet, the first two years of my life the doctors gave my dad and my mother no hope that I would live to be a teenager. They could not find what was wrong with me but I was sick and not getting better. The range of possibilities of what was wrong covered a wide array of possible deadly diseases.
It was through my dad’s keen observation of events and the work of God my dad observed that when we left the Pasadena, Texas area and went to East Texas for a couple of weeks I would get better. He went to the doctor and asked if there was a possible connection and the doctors advised that it was possible. That prompted my Dad to send my mother, me and my little sister to East Texas to my grandparents for a month and during that time I got much better.
That reality prompted my Dad to quit the best job would ever hold in his lifetime and move to East Texas. For the rest of his life worked in much lesser jobs, but never complained about the sacrifice he made so that I could live. I always knew in my heart that it was an act of great love. Thus, I suggest that even when you do not see what you think God should be doing, if you will look to the Cross you will immediately realize that God’s love is Never in Question. We question in our own human understanding but we must never question God’s Love or His Motives. We need to trust that love and be Completely Honest with Him in all things.
Honesty brings a liberty that cannot be attained any other way. In fact, it was when we “confessed our sins with our mouths, and believed in our hearts” that God brought to us the New Birth. No pretense, no wearing a mask, just open and honest admission of our condition and our failure to measure up. It was the throwing of ourselves on the Mercy of God that brought us freedom spiritually. Therefore, Be Honest with the Lord and remember He already knows and His purpose is not to judge and condemn you but to bring you to Redemption!
May God walk with you as you go through your day and bring you great peace! Blessings!